Fly Dandelion,Fly!

Aku Ingin Ke Padang Rumput

2011-02-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

aku ingin ke padang rumput

bersinaran bersama

ilalang yang kuning

bergoyang seirama angin

dan beristirahat di pelukmu

seharian

nanti kita duduk berdua, ya.

tertawa-tawa

berderai-derai

sampai keluar air mata

nanti di bawah akasia tua

kau menggambarku

aku menulis tentangmu

lalu angin sore

akan meniupkan derita dari hatimu

jauh-jauh

sampai ujung langit biru itu

hilang sudah semua keluh

berganti dengan bulir-bulir peluh

ketika kita berkejaran

di padang rumput

sampai petang menjelang

Sementara

2011-02-01T06:52:00.000-08:00

Selamanya itu bohong.

Yang ada hanya sementara;

aku dan kamu

untuk waktu yang lama

Terimakasih untuk Float

dan lagunya yang indah

Up to the Date

2011-01-29T23:10:00.000-08:00

Reading MANY KIND OF TEXT Listening to FLOAT and RS Currently SAD Watching FULL METAL JACKET Noshing NOTHING Lusting MESSENGER BAG Feeling RANDOM Wanting RICE FIELD AND HIM

A Little Poem of You

2011-01-28T00:24:00.000-08:00

Kamu itu
Udara

Bertebaran bebas, tak bisa kupeluk.
Hanya bisa

kuhirup.

:')

I want to talk to you

2011-01-27T21:19:00.000-08:00

Céline : I always assumed you had forgotten me.

Jesse : No, I had a pretty clear picture of you in my mind. I have to tell you something.(They stop and face each other.) I just...

Céline : What?

Jesse : I wanted to talk to you for so long, you know, that now...

Céline : Yeah, me too.

From Before Sunset (2004) my favorite movie EVER.

the Game of Love

2011-01-26T19:12:00.000-08:00

a man googling her name a man

and with only one aim and

a woman wants to know that- a woman

in love this flame in love

they don't know is not a mere Game they don't know

each other find his timeline what's in the future

but their reads the words all they know is

feelings are so swims in the ocean that swift glance

strong of love at each other

stronger than if they didn't mean and that SMILE

the time apart to be together to each other's eyes

stronger than why does that feeling might be

the distance they keep growing an answer,

face strong? someday.

Stupido Ritmo by Float

2011-01-26T03:55:00.000-08:00

You and I painting rainbows when no rain falls on our wall
Smelling raindrops on a hilltop as they fall
You and I laughing loudly with no reasons in our walk
Chasing sunsets, dancing minuet in the dark

Why don't we just disappear
If that could keep us here?

You and I sharing snow fall and the beach sand in our thoughts
Writing love words with our whispers in our hearts
You and I stealing kisses from each other when we fight
Making wishes on the same star every night

Why don't we just dream away
If that could make us stay?
Why can't we just dream away?
We're not real, anyway

ta ra ta ta ta ta ta ra ta ta
ra ta ta ra ta ta ta ra
ta ra ta ta ta ta ta ra ta ta
ra ta ta ra ta ta ta ra

Why don't we just stay this high?
Pretend we're all that fly
Why can't we just stay this high?
We might rule our own sky

You and I singing solo our very own silly song
Playing lovers of all edens all life long
All life long
All life long

*beautifully written, this will be my wedding anthem!

Cianjur

2011-01-26T02:33:00.000-08:00

mungkin di tengah ramainya

lalu lalang bis kota

dan diantara deretan

toko manisan di sepanjang jalan

aku bisa melihatmu

sekilas

mungkin nanti

jika kulanjutkan perjalanan sedikit lagi

di tengah hijaunya sawah

dan dibalik rimbunnya rumpun melati

aku bisa segera menemukanmu

Distopia

2011-01-17T04:55:00.000-08:00

ini layaknya pesta megah semalam suntuk

dengan banyak margarita dan tequilla

mungkin menyenangkan

lama-lama

memabukkan

?

2011-01-12T06:41:00.000-08:00

if love, why hurt?

Day #19

2011-01-11T02:47:00.000-08:00

(Mungkin)
Terpisah seribu tahun cahaya
dan berbeda sejuta tahun suara

tapi masih terlihat sinarnya
terasa gemanya

Day #18

2011-01-09T14:50:00.000-08:00

Salatiga 2

berbakul-bakul cinta
untukmu, pak
tak habis walau kau kelaparan
tak kosong walau dimakan zaman

Day #17

2011-01-08T22:16:00.000-08:00

Sebuah Doa

kudoakan semoga kau
membesar
menggemuk
menggendut
bukan karena udara
bukan karena harta
tetapi karena kaya,

kaya lemak.
sehingga kau
menggelembung
mengorbit bumi
pecah terkena
panas matahari
dan aku bahagia
membayangkan serpihan
dagingmu
membusuk di angkasa

Repost; Psycho Girl

2011-01-05T03:52:00.000-08:00

Smile then
secretly stab
She glances outside
to find the yellow cab
Hell to you psycho girl
for I envy your bloody pearl

Smile then
secretly kick
She swirls her hair
sips the beer
Hell to you psycho girl
your face is like a cynic
since I prefer Margarita
I look more like Santa

Smile then
secretly cry
She lit the cigarette
lips gone wet
Hell to you psycho girl
for you make them high
and fly to the sky
Hell to you psycho girl
for you better die!

Day #16

2011-01-03T20:25:00.000-08:00

Siang

lotengnya sepi

jemuran ketiduran

tenang dibuai angin

beberapa tidur sangat lelap

sampai jatuh tersungkur

ke lantai semen panas

samar-samar suara tv terdengar

"Jose Fernando, jangan pergi!"

si mbak menitikkan air mata

menyaksikan percintaan Rosalinda

di telenovela

ia memeluk bantal

membayangkan Parjonya

seandainya ada Parjo

pasti ia sudah lupa

dengan ketampanan Jose Fernando

seandainya ada Parjo

pasti ia...

ah, telefon berdering.

si mbak bangkit dari rebahan

menjawab telefon ogah-ogahan

lalu ia merinding

mendengar suara kecil di seberang

"Emaaak..."

Day #15

2011-01-03T17:40:00.000-08:00

Pagi

Si mbak sibuk dengan gincu

dan hand body lima ribuan

wanginya wangi pasar;

agak mirip bau sayuran

yang mengkerut di sudut kulkas

bercampur dengan

wangi kembang sedap malam

ya, dia mau pergi ke pasar

disuruh Ibu belanja ini itu, katanya

sekalian mejeng

ketemu sama si Parjo, bisiknya dalam hati

si mbak pun melenggang menuju pasar

payung dan tas kain dikepit

diketiaknya yang wangi kulit

dagunya diangkat setinggi langit

ia terbang,

meninggalkan semerbak wangi pasar

di loteng rumah

setiap pagi

*mbak saya (dan mbak2 tetangga dan mungkin mbakmu juga)

menyebut body lotion dengan hand body

Day #14

2011-01-03T06:43:00.000-08:00

menggigit.
lebih dingin dari kabut pertama di pagi yang mendung.
padahal di luar sana katamu
cerah tanpa awan
hangat dan menawan

mengapa aku merasa
sakit?

kuhayati dan kuresapi semalam suntuk
sampai tertunduk
sampai mabuk
lalu nangis terduduk
padahal di luar sana katamu
senyum-senyum merekah
seperti tak kenal lelah

mengapa aku merasa
hilang?

Aku Kuning Lalu Hilang

2011-01-03T05:14:00.000-08:00

Baris ini terngiang-ngiang, selalu, dimanapun:

Jangan biarkan aku jangan hilaaaang...
Jangan biarkan aku jangan hilaaaang...

dan

Ceritakan padaku
Indahnya keluh kesahmu
sebelum angin senja membasuh
Jauuuuh...

Rumah Sakit (Hilang dan Kuning)

Random

2011-01-01T07:04:00.000-08:00

Si anak diberi nama Keefa. Lahir dari pasangan Sam dan Tina. Si pembuat akte nyengir kuda di ruang kerja. Sebelum tombol print di kejutkan, ia ganti nama Tina dengan namanya. Keefa, lahir dari pasangan Sam dan si pembuat akte. Nyata, semenit dua menit saja.

Day #13

2011-01-01T06:05:00.000-08:00

lebih jauh dari jarak bumi ke bintang
lebih rumit dari perkalian sembilan
lebih besar dari Kraken
lebih luas dari pekaranganmu
mungkin setinggi Olimpus
mungkin sedalam Hindia
mungkin sekaya Mr.Trump
mungkin seperti itulah
kita.

Day #12

2011-01-01T05:53:00.000-08:00

urung kularung sekarung rindu yang kusimpan untukmu
sungai terlalu panjang, danau terlampau dalam, lautan teramat luas
nanti rinduku keburu basah, nanti rinduku keburu berat, nanti rinduku keburu tenggelam
sebelum mencapai hatimu di ujung cakrawala

and I am waiting to be like HER!

2010-12-28T22:04:00.000-08:00

www.weheartit.com

Life is Waiting

2010-12-28T21:52:00.000-08:00

Yes it is. And now I am waiting for my future.
I am waiting to realize my dreams.
I am waiting for the cake I'll bake in the future; I am waiting for the icing sugar I'll make.
I am waiting for the fashion items I'll buy in the future.
I am waiting for the books I'll read later.
I am waiting for the RIGHT time to realize all my passions.

it doesn't mean that i am just WAITING.
Waiting is boring like you know but there are many things we can do while we wait.
Yes, I am waiting (but I don't STOP).

I Describe What I Imagine (Just Like Him)

2010-12-28T04:30:00.000-08:00

You speak of Lord Byron and me;
there is this great difference between us.
He describes what he sees,
I describe what I imagine.
Mine is the hardest task.

John Keats

That is why I love Keats more.
and I am sorry for neglecting this blog (again) for a long while.
I will continue my 12th day soon.

Day #11

2010-12-06T06:14:00.000-08:00

Jasmerah

kata Ayah

aku lahir dari

kukusan nasi

yang dibalik

lalu tumpah

sudahkah aku

tanak betul?

kata Ayah

aku sudah tidak

betah

aku gerah

tinggal di dalam

kukusan nasi

lalu

aku ditumpahkan

ditumpahkan

ke bumi

untuk mengisi

kukusan nasi

milikku sendiri

yang kubawa-bawa

sampai aku mati nanti

siapa yang mau

mengisi

kukusan nasi ini?

terinspirasi dari Opera Jawa; Tusuk Konde-nya mas Garin

Day #10

2010-12-05T00:15:00.000-08:00

ada yang bergerak gerak
berenang timbul tenggelam
di dalam sungai merah jambu
bernama kalbu

terkadang terasa
nikmat
terkadang terasa
menyayat
sampai ingin
kukutuki dengan
laknat

ya!
kamu yang berenang-
renang disini,
di dalam sini

ya!
kamu yang selalu memberiku
kenikmatan pekat

dan ya,
kamu yang terkadang
menyayat-nyayat
sampai aku
sekarat

ada yang bergerak gerak
berenang timbul tenggelam
di dalam sungai merah jambu
bernama kalbu

ya, itu kamu
ayo terus berenang
sungaiku masih panjang

Day #9

2010-12-03T21:20:00.000-08:00

Salatiga

nenek di tepi jurang
rukuh
dan menyembah
bulir-bulir embun
di batang rumput

kayu bakar
memeluknya

ia bangun,
meminum bulir embun
ia mulai turun
menyusuri lembah
dan jalan berbatu
diiringi angin dingin
gunung Merbabu

It is COLD, let's PLAY outside

2010-12-02T06:50:00.000-08:00

Coldplay's new single entitled Christmas Lights is officially launched today!
Yeay such a great great news since I love Coldplay since forever, yes I love them like really really really +1000 love them!
Can't wait for their 5th album and I do really hope they will come to Jakarta, Om Adrie please help me, I am dying to see them LIVE!

I cannot stop listen to Christmas Lights. I've played it like 20 times today LOL
The music video is super brilliant, really, and they play such good tunes! Cant say more.
By the end of the video, you can spot a phrase in Latin saying CREDO ELVEM ETIAM VIVERE means I do believe Elvis is alive. My question is: who is Elvis?
Is it Elvis Presley? LOL skip that.

*Is it really Elvis? Maybe it supposes to be Elves

Day #8

2010-12-01T05:41:00.000-08:00

Bederap-derap
langkah yang berat
Ah, kakanda pulang
dari ladang

Sini biar kukecup tanganmu
Biar kuciumi jemarimu
Biar saja, aku suka
bau tanah yang melekat
di kulitmu

Sini biar kubawakan cangkulmu
Masuklah
Kubantu basuh tanganmu, ya?
Lihat
ada nasi hangat
dan ikan asap siap disantap
Tidak,
jangan minta aku menyuapimu
aku lebih suka
bermain-main di kakimu
menghilangkan penat
tungkai dan betismu

Tidak, aku tidak ikut makan
aku sudah kenyang
memandangimu
melahap nasi hangat
dan ikan asap

Enak?

____________________________________________

Berderit-derit
dipan kayu
menjerit-jerit
Aku disini
tidak lari terbirit-birit

Kakanda mengerang
aku ikut bergoyang
Kakanda melayang
aku pun senang

Day #7

2010-11-30T06:14:00.000-08:00

Ada di pelupuk
Awan biru
Langit putih
Pasir laut
dan sekelebat
senyummu

Hanya udara
yang kupeluk
sambil mengecap
asinnya laut
dan keringatmu
di dalam benak

Ada rasa laut
dan rasamu
digulung liur
sampai ke hilir

Bahkan aku rindu
ampas dirimu
yang dihempaskan
gelombang pasang
kembali ke hulu

Aku menanti
kabar dari teluk

Ceritakan padaku
cerita-cerita
dari teluk saat
kau datang
berkunjung

Ceritakan padaku
seluk beluk teluk,
tentang seberapa
putih pasirnya
tentang betapa
jernih airnya
sehingga kau
tak pernah ingat
rumah
tempatmu pulang

Day #6

2010-11-29T07:40:00.001-08:00

permadani usang

ditapaki langkah-langkah berat

suatu sore

di dekat Kota

sudut temaram

wajah yang muram

mengecap wine

sambil tersenyum masam

"Aku lapar"

"Ayo kita makan"

jelaga hitam liat di pelupuk mata

habis dalam sekejap

sudut temaram

wajah yang tak lagi muram

mengecap wine

bergandengan pulang

Day #5

2010-11-29T07:35:00.000-08:00

batu dan lumut

mereka semakin erat

semakin akrab

ketika hujan badai menerpa

Day #4

2010-11-26T02:28:00.000-08:00

Di luar hujan berisik
dari balik jendela kuintip
tanah merah menghentak-hentak
asyik
kerikil-kerikil yang malu
melontar jauh-jauh
rumput gajah menunduk
malu
dan kembang sepatu
salah tingkah,
kelopaknya bersemu

Hujan semakin berisik
dan tanah menghentak-hentak
semakin asyik
mataku pun terpejam
menikmati bisik
percintaan tanah dan hujan
detik demi detik

Day #3

2010-11-24T18:09:00.000-08:00

Suatu hari nanti kau akan tahu, nak
Mengapa aku mengiris dagingku sendiri
dan membiarkan rasa sakit menyobek
ubun-ubun kepalaku

Suatu hari nanti kau akan tahu, nak
Mengapa aku merontokkan rambut dan
bulu disekujur tubuhku

Suatu hari kau akan tahu, nak
Mengapa kuhitamkan kuku-kuku ku
sampai membuatmu malu

Suatu hari nanti kau akan tahu, nak
Bahwa dagingku-lah Ismailku
Kukorbankan Ismailku untuk menyapihmu
Bahwa rambut dan buluku-lah yang
menyelimutimu diwaktu-waktu sendumu
Dan kuku hitamku selalu tumbuh
bersamamu, menjagamu agar kau tak layu

Suatu hari kau akan tahu, nak
Mengapa Ibu selalu tahu
setiap inchi perasaanmu

Untuk Ibu; semoga cepat sembuh dan tumbuh rambut lagi.

A LOUD SHOUT

2010-11-24T03:16:00.000-08:00

SIR HENRY JAMES

YOU ARE RIGHT!!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

"Deep experience is never peaceful"

Day #2

2010-11-23T20:26:00.000-08:00

Masih tertinggal

sisa hadirmu

semalam;

aku masih

merah

sedikit

basah

dan

liat

kenya

Day #1

2010-11-23T05:52:00.000-08:00

kamu hujan

aku tanah;

dan kita bercinta ditengah gemuruh badai

kenya

A Short Hello from the Soul

2010-11-20T00:51:00.000-08:00

Hello, how are you? It's been a month since my last dumb post entitled SOUL lol

Now I've realized that my soul is here, she is not going anywhere, she is here inside my structure and it was only me who thought that my soul was empty. Silly but yes apparently it is just a matter of how you burn and live your soul up. Don't worry, already find a way to make it works.

S O U L

2010-10-18T18:26:00.001-07:00

EMPTY

B O D Y

2010-10-18T18:21:00.001-07:00

They said I am getting thinner day by day.
And they said I am ugly.
They said I am way too pale.
And they said that I use whitening cream all over my body.
They said I am weak.
And they said that's because I am not into sport.
They said I am worrying my skin too much.
And they said I spend too much money for my skin care.

That's because they dont know how it feels to step on my foot. Agree?

M I N D

2010-10-18T18:09:00.001-07:00

My mind speaks language people don't understand.
I don't even understand my own mind.
It has weird scheme; how it works, how it spins, all weird.
And I do disappoint people as I communicate my thoughts.
I don't know what to do; feels like I am flying in the middle of unknown.
I have no faith, have no principle, everything goes wrong.
I want to dissolve into molecules.

Let's Talk About Sadness

2010-10-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

Where does the sad feeling come from?

Is it culturally constructed? or is it innate?

The White Stripe Toga

2010-10-16T20:48:00.000-07:00

Mary Lennox To-Be

2010-10-14T09:36:00.000-07:00

I want to be Mary of the Secret Garden

so here it is

Welcome to my Secret Garden

Everyone!

Enjoy and stay a while

Hear the rosebuds sing

and the birds chirp

joyfully

Listen,

maybe

it is your heart

that sing

I AM IN LOVE, DEEPLY IN LOVE

2010-10-12T04:34:00.000-07:00

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

From Cien Sonetos De Amor
by Pablo Neruda

What Is the Point of Knowing Everything?

2010-10-12T03:14:00.000-07:00

This question hangs in my mind since forever and I haven't found the answer yet. What is the point of knowing everything? I'd like to know the answer. Did I ask the same question twice? Yes,I did. That question itches my brain a lot.

It is good to know many things or in other words, it is nice to have Wikipedia Brain and Google Mind. You have everything you need in your brain and you can share it to many people too. Perfect, isn't it?

People will think you are smart.

People will ask a lot of questions to you.

People will ask you to discuss.

People will pay you high respect.

and people will talk behind your back at last L.O.L

Socrates said the best thing I know is I know nothing. So, what is the point of knowing everything then?

In my opinion, it is good to know many things but please watch out your manner. Being smart or being above the line is a gift and you should thank God for that. Please don't misuse your knowledge to discredit other people, please don't ever discredit others and think you are the best of all. That is so annoying, really. What did I say? I am sorry for the flash-intermezzo here, I just want to write so then I can think of the answer.

Do I have to remind you that YOU ARE NOT GOD?

Knowledge you may have,

reason you may have,

theory you may have,

but they will not help you at all.

Hmm, maybe Socrates popped out such phrase to remind us; to keep our head down low and respect others.

Well said, uncle Socrates!

The Penis and the Questions

2010-10-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

So this is the story.
I went to Britzone on Friday and I found this book. The title is Midnight All Day written by Hanif Kureshi. I read the title Strangers When We Meet and I found it very interesting. It reminds me of my fave movie Before Sunrise and Before Sunset. Then I went to the circulation to borrow the book. I thought it was a novel but apparently it was a short story compilation. I went through the pages, read the story one by one and found this short story.
The title is pretty much striking and this is what you call as' 'mbeling' in Javanese. The title is The Penis. Yes right, clap your hand and jump dear!!
Do you think the title is striking enough? L.O.L
No-no. Please don't think that I am going to write something nasty or porn here. Penis is not always related to porn and whatsoever. Let's try to look at the word penis from another perspective.

So this is the story.
One day, a famous porn star named Doug lost his penis. Doug's penis is amazing; it could erect for hours and grow to the sun. Doug made his living through porn movies and he couldn't imagine what will he do if he lost his penis. Doug was confused and he tried to find his penis. He went all the way to track his penis and he was surprised that his penis has became famous now. His penis talked to many people and held a press conference. His penis wanted to pursue his own career without Doug. Doug needed his penis to do his job as a porn star but his penis wanted to do it without Doug. Doug begged his penis to come back. His Penis had a wish; he wanted to be put in front of Doug's nose or inside Doug's mouth to be more popular. Or, if Doug couldn't accept that wish the penis wanted Doug to do more hanky panky with big size women in his porn movies for the whole life.

(for more detail you can find this story attached to Hanif Kureishi's short story compilation: Midnight All Day)

So this is the question.

Is a penis he or it?

No-no. I am only joking.

The question will be:

What will a man be without his penis?

and What will a penis be without his man?

Or,

is a man still a man without his penis?

and is a penis still a penis without his man?

In Doug's case, he will be nothing without his penis. He can't make money to run his live without his penis. How about Doug's penis? Does it need Doug to live? Well, in the world of surreal the penis could live without Doug. But since we live in the world full of realism (or we choose to believe in reali(ty)sm), penis is a mere penis without his master. So what will you say?

Man is a male human.

and Male refers to the sex of an organism, or part of an organism, which produces small mobile gametes, called spermatozoa (www.wikipedia.org)

Well I am not going to make it more complicated, I just want to show you that biologically a human can be a man because of his reproduction system which represents by the penis and the scrotum. If we refer to that statement, is a man can be consider as a man WITHOUT his penis?

Doug is a man. His voice, his muscle, his face, his tummy are all manly. When he lost his penis, does it still make him a man? You know the answer.

But what is a penis mean for Doug actually? What is his reason to have his penis back?

Remember, Doug is a porn star and he needs his penis a lot to....GAIN MONEY. That is the most important thing for Doug to live. If he didn't think of the money he probably wouldn't care of his penis at all. I know that penis is important for any men to live but the value of it depends on how they see it. It is true that penis makes man but is Doug still a man with his penis hanging? or is he more like a man without his penis? You decide.

I don't mean to take this writing erotically. I just want to write because the idea of a man loosing his penis is quite interesting for me. It also has relation to the culture that said size matters. L.O.L the mak erot things are quite hype, aren't they? and I remember Freud and his idea of 'penis envy', power and etc when I write this but I still need to explore it further. The story itself is very witty and far from the so called porn, you better read it by yourself and tell me what you think.

A Belief

2010-10-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us,

not you or me but just this little space in between.

If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the

attempt of understanding someone sharing something.

I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really?

answer must be in the attempt.

Celine in Before Sunrise

Spin the Wheel

2010-10-08T21:19:00.001-07:00

Hello, it's been ages since my last post and yes I am a bad blogger. Well actually, I don't consider myself as blogger since I never put anything here; maybe I am a writer but the bad one. I don't know. Things are confusing lately and things are changing, of course! we live in temporariness, don't we? I feel funny after I re-read what I've written here and got surprise of how things are really changing right now. It's been 6 months or more since my last post and you have missed my stories a lot LOL

My tone changes, my perspective changes, my habit changes (a bit), my status changes, my look changes, my hair style too, my body changes and to sum them up: my world changes and it will always change. We spin like an atom; we are the atom itself. We run, we jump, we live, we love, we drink, we pee, we breathe but we are still the same like we used to be. We change, yes, but we can't go outside ourself. There's something that makes you still you even though you changes a lot. What is it? and what will the dictionary of philosophy describe it? I don't care yet. I just realize that I am changing and spinning like the atom does.

Glad that I live, I am.

Hello From Here

2010-10-08T09:08:00.000-07:00

HELLO

again!!

HIM

2010-03-13T07:49:00.000-08:00

He who flickers through my night and he who gleams during my day, he who helps and he who cares, he who loves and he who hugs, he who smiles and he who cries, he who strokes and he who tickles, he who works and he who fights, he who walks and he who runs, he who calms me down and he who burns me up, HE WHO IMPROVES ME, HE IS MY BABY.

We Kissed Before Sunset

2010-03-12T04:32:00.000-08:00

Below are the hear-melt dialogues from my fave movie. Guess what it is :)

Jesse : I feel like if someone were to touch me, I'd dissolve into molecules.
Celine : So, I want to try something.
Jesse : What?
Celine : [hugs him] I want to see if you stay together or if you dissolve into molecules.
Jesse : How'm I doing?
Celine : Still here.
Jesse : Good, I like being here.

For God's sake I love this movie (and its sequel) so much; more than anything. This is the best movie ever, and I hate the DVD seller who said: This is a low budget movie, poor one. I laughed inside when she said that unimportant reason. I dont even care with the budget, I love the stories and the people there, so me likey. I cant stop thinking about the stories, the beautiful setting, the dialogues and the romance between the characters. Jesse and Celine are absolutely the modern version of Romeo and Juliet. They will be eternal just like Romeo and Juliet, I guarantee. Thank you Mr Linklater for the stories, I am your number one fans, yeay! God, really, I cant stop scream my heart out about this movie. Im in love, Im in love, Im in love with the stories, really do :)

IS IT?

2010-03-08T21:02:00.000-08:00

O Captain, My Captain! Rise up and hear the bells.

Uncle W.W

Hello. It's been a while since my last post though. Life's been very kind to me lately even though sometimes I realized that things don't always go the way I plan. Obstacles are everywhere but there's something I could rely on forever; hope. Hope won't go and hope will save us. Lately, I am thinking of what Mr Keating from Dead Poet Society said to his students: Carpe Diem. Seize the Day. Well, it is such a mesmerizing quote; i just don't know how to apply it! How to seize the day? do we have to think about limitation when we do something to seize our day? Well, I am going do it with my own. We have only one life, no time for the trial. Once it error, we should fix the risk. No problem, everyday is carpe diem time. (IS IT?)

No Title

2010-02-27T20:48:00.002-08:00

Fine words! I wonder where you stole 'em
Jonathan Swift

I know you stole it from me,
that makes you a copy cat,
forever copy cat
in my eyes.
I don't know you,
you don't know me
(maybe you know a bit about me)
do not try to make a mess with me
Please respect my authority,
thank you :D

Feel free to follow my twitter,
kenyokenya

Happy reading

best regards,

KENYA

Help me count the days

2010-02-24T00:13:00.000-08:00

Your face seals my eyelid,

I barely cannot sleep!

To the ceiling I glance

Think how much I miss you these days

Hope God will answer my prays

that

There's no day except Saturday!

(Tomo, if Monday is your day, then Saturday is our day)

I love you.

the Picture of Picture

2010-02-22T18:42:00.000-08:00

I am so excited to write my thesis lately! My whole mind is ready to analyze and re-analyze those cycles :9 I will keep my oath; I will do my thesis IMMEDIATELY, soon after I finish my book. The deadline is in front of my nose so I have to do it quickly. To me, the translating job is a kind of heart-head sync work. You need to synchronize your heart and your head and vice versa in order to re-write the sentences. Sometimes you find it hard to find the exact words, sometimes you find it very easy to re-write. It all goes up and down, depends on your heart-head condition. Well, I agree with my own previous quote: To go with the spinning of the world, all you need is a well build head :P and I'll put additional word to complete the quote which is heart. To go with the spinning of the world all you need is a well build head-and a heart. Well, it is crap, I am not good in writing the quotes lol.

But I do hope that I'll be good in writing my thesis :D The title of my thesis will be

The Manifestation of Modern Aestheticism and Art for Art's Sake

in Oscar Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray

Woohooo! isn't it long? and yes yes I am doing the research of Dorian Gray. The first time my supervisor asked me WHY I choose Dorian Gray, I answered her bluntly. I said: because I love Wilde. And she laughed. I didn't like Wilde much at that time, and I was kinda confuse which one I have to choose; is it better Poe or Wilde? Adriel told me that I'd better choose Wilde because Kak Caca (my senior) has done a thesis about Poe. Then I agree with him, I'll do Wilde and his Dorian Gray. I began to love the story, and I began to love Wilde more. I read his works, I quoted his quotes etc then an old memory struck my mind. Years ago (circa 5 or 6 years ago), when I was in high school and have no idea at all about English Literature, a friend of mine, Adit, told me that he read such a cool book. He told me the story, and he said he use dictionary for the whole pages to read the book (since he didnt understand english at that time). He loves the story very much, more than you can imagine. He loves it, I know. He loves The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (he said Wilde not Wild, lol). And I do sure know, more than anything, that Dorian Gray is my path. Yes yes, it is not a coincidence; I have to write my thesis! I do believe that it'll lead me into a bigger picture which I dont know yet. I know, I will get something :D

Well, hehehe, it is a long post, I guess! I just want to share my thought, I kinda lonely now. Mum is in hospital and Dad goes to Bali to work. I want my mum here, I wish her a good health! It is her 6th chemotherapy (which is the last chemo), and I do pray for her health :D

The Swan Lover

2010-02-20T18:21:00.000-08:00

They will pop Bandung and Jogja, oh my oh my :DD

Come, sing along together:

I'll stick with him and keep my nose, CLEAN!

Lazy Sun Bather

2010-02-11T06:45:00.000-08:00

Hola peeps, me back again here after the "long" recovery from my headache. Yes yes I've had a terrible headache for 3 days and mum told me to stay away from lappie and those electronic stuffs :'(

Well these are the causes of my sudden illness:

Sit in front of lappie more than 10 hours/day without significant break
Rarely drink fresh water (I always drink honey, isn't it the same?)
Stay inside home and never go out to enjoy sun ray (I remember Joanna Newsom when typed sun ray here, she's cool by the way :P )

The last number three is the silliest of all. Silly but true. I've never had sun ray touched my skin since last January. I went out when the sun off from the sky or had my body covered with thick sweater plus umbrella. I don't know, I just hate the sun. How can we enjoy the sun ray when it heat burns our skin? Mum and Tomo told me to do sunbathing every morning, and I do it half-heartedly. I don't like sunbathing, I am the lazy sun bather (Morrissey) gahaha, it was my friendster's nick name :P They said that my skin is white and pale. Think I need some kind of face moisturizer that can make my face brighter.

Well off to bed bye now! I'm going to post an award by Titaz 2mos yay :D thanks for the award, dear :)

Oh yeay, this is my mood update:
Reading: NGM
Listening: Float
Currently: Dizzy
Watching: Me dad's laughing
Noshing: fried mushroom
Lusting: brogue
Feeling: sick
Wanting: MY BOYFIE

a small pray

2010-02-01T07:28:00.000-08:00

To Mr-Very-Nice-and-Kind behind a small hut in Salemba

To Mr-Very-Nice-and-Kind behind the steering wheel of PX Taxi

To Mr-Very-Nice-and-Kind who refused our money

To Mas Parjo and Mas Jangkung the loyalest tukang ojek ever

To Mbak Yat my loyal house-keeper

Ya Allah, please grant their wishes. They are good people and you know that they're helping me in my hard times. I cannot imagine what will I be without them around me. Alhamdulilah :)

I do want to cry when I remember all their kindness to me. I am 'the other' for them but they are very kind. It is true that 'the other' are helping us to define who we are.

CRAVING FOR

2010-01-30T23:06:00.000-08:00

Indeed, Indeed! It is like getting back to my childhood time :) Indeed, Indeed, Indeed, I want this floral tights, Indeed, Indeed!!

I Praise the Corpse that Never Wink

2010-01-27T05:56:00.000-08:00

I praise the corpse that never wink
that is such a silly thing
even it has no more stream of ink
or a sword to be yielding
only starving maggots munching its skin
with the smell of rotten brain, saucing.
disgusting.
how disgusting it is.
these-guts-thing

poor nose, mine is hurting

then I go. Vomiting.

co-pas from my Fb's note :))

Spontaneous Overflow of Powerful Feeling

2010-01-24T23:16:00.000-08:00

Wordsworth classic is no longer Rp 30.000, they reduce the price into Rp 28.000, HORRAY!

There are also special edition books by Wordsworth classic; covered in velvet, available in maroon, black, and blue and all, wow! Rp 142.000, think to buy Oscar Wilde and Austen, going to put them on my bookshelf :)

Think I'm Lucky

2010-01-21T23:25:00.000-08:00

To go with the spinning of the world, all you need is a well-build head -own quotes

The world do spins, I know. It makes me dizzy and worry. I dont need to complain though. I've my extra medicine everywhere. Thanks for my medicine, you really made my day! *SOON! My list of 'medicine' hehe

I went to UNAS with some of my classmates yesterday. We joined the BritFest there, and thanks God I am the runner up for the s.p.e.l.l.i.n.g b.e.e competition :) Should I be proud or not? I was saying bismillah thousands time yesterday and lucky me I had such easy words to spell, such as; limousine (i love this word!!), psychotherapy, hyperbole, hybrid and others. The other participants were having trouble because they got very-difficult words to spell. It's a matter of luck and I was happy-go-lucky yesterday :) I am thinking about the prize haha I hope they will give me extra cash so I can buy my dream dress immediately!

By the way, Intan just lend me her DORIAN GRAY.
I am so excited to watch the movie because it is the adaptation from the novel The Picture of Dorian Gray (which is the corpus for my thesis). Ben Barnes (the prince Caspian) acts as Dorian there, and his face is unlike the face of Dorian I imagined :'( I kinda afraid that I will loose my interest in doing my thesis after I watch the movie boo-hoo but something somewhere in my mind tell me that I should watch it. Watch it or leave it? well, to be or not to be, gahaha!

I am writing this post in Britzone :)
I am here with Intan.
Think to revise my chapter 1,
end up with surfing the net and
enjoy the AC

IF ONLY

2010-01-19T22:31:00.000-08:00

If I were the one of those English upper-class society living in the Victorian period, I'd like to be addressed as YOUR GRACE :)

Me: my Apple crisp and tea, please

Lady-in-waiting: as you wish, Your Grace

or or or or or,

Lady-in-waiting : Lord Grey is waiting downstairs, Your Grace

and and and and and,

I would like to have someone call me me Lady! Lady Grey (If I were married with someone name Grey; Earl Tomo Grey, the Duke of Canterbury :P)

Which Sexy Lady Are You?

2010-01-18T08:53:00.000-08:00

Audrey Kathleen Ruston

a.k.a

Audrey Hepburn

Classy Classic

Everlasting Beauty :)

L.O.V.E

2010-01-17T09:19:00.000-08:00

"Love is a word that is often overused. When someone says “I love those shoes” they don’t literally mean they “love” the shoes. They just like them. Our generation has told too many people “I love you” People say it like it’s nothing. Just something that you are “supposed” to say. It begins to lose it’s true meaning. No one understands what love really means until they meet that one person that you want to be with every second of everyday. The one person that could make you fall apart. The person that can control your mood. The person that if they died you wouldn’t know how you were going to go on. The person that can make you smile when you want to cry. The person that no matter how much they have hurt you, you still want them, and couldn’t imagine being without them. The person that when just IMAGINING who they have been with and what they have done with them could just bring tears to your eyes. Some people mistake that if you love someone that everything has to be perfect with them. That you will never fight, never argue. No. That’s just appears to be love, and what we want to believe is love. When you love someone you are with them through the thick and thin, the good and the bad. So when using the word “love” think about it. Don’t just say it because you think it’s the right moment to say it, or because you think you are supposed to say it."

(re-blog from binki.tumblr.com)

*I am thinking of Tomo, and I feel sooo haappy :)

Ectasy

2010-01-14T19:12:00.000-08:00

I don't do drugs. I am drugs.
Salvador Dali

I am (not) geek in the Library yet

2010-01-12T19:02:00.002-08:00

Rain, again. The smell is always good, but I can't go outside. I planned to go to Britzone with Adriel and Kak Ica but the falling rain insist me to stay home. I miss Britzone and its 'scholary' atmosphere, it makes me feel like a smart academician (whom I really am) haha :P By the way, yesterday I made myself:

Cheese Omelet
Vegetable soup
Fried Mushroom
Fried Potato

and bought myself two pocket of scented sachets, yeey! I chose green tea and refreshing vintage odor. I put the green tea below my AC and the vintage inside my closet, they smell totally good and relaxing. The best thing is, they can bring my mood back to do my translation job, still long way to go, though :)

To pump up my mood, I also listen to this song

It is from my faverave movie ever; Before Sunset. Give it a hit, and feel the song :) I am going back to do my job now. I have to finish it VERY SOON!!

It is a Well-said

2010-01-10T09:01:00.000-08:00

WELL SAID
Love is a promise,

love is a souvenir,

once given never forgotten,

never let it disappear.
-John Lennon

My promise, my souvenir:

Rahgutomo Unggul Pambudi

will never disappear :)

SF 2013

2010-01-08T02:03:00.000-08:00

My afternoon was fun :)
the whole class went to AMINEF to learn more about study in the USA, and I feel content!
The student counselor, mas Okki, was very helpful. He said we can discuss our plan to study in the USA anytime for FREE (Yay, I love the word FREE!)
After mas Okki told us about the scholarship and assistantship program, the hope in the bottom of pandora shook a lot. I am planning to do this and that related to my next study, and I know that Allah will always give the right way for me to pass, I am sure :)

HOW I WANT TO STUDY ABROAD!

By the way,
I am quite worry today :(
Hope everything will be just fine, amen.

Daily Fly

2010-01-06T02:19:00.000-08:00

Looklet is the real pain killer! the itch have not stopped yet, and I cant concentrate on my translation :'(
so to keep my mind happy, I go to Looklet.
these are some of my gorgeous looks :D
Please pray for me peeps, I want my itch to stop boohoo o..
Bytheway, I found this interesting site www.fiftypeopleonequestion.com
try a click and feel the fun there!

the World Without Caterpillar

2010-01-05T04:56:00.000-08:00

Hi, peeps. Me back again behind my lappie. Thank you for coming and visiting my home here :) you know, the caterpillar is getting crazier, I can't hold it anymore! what can I do to make them disappear? I was screaming out loud when I took my evening shower, my whole body feels so itch until now I stain this page. How I hate caterpillar so much :'(

Despite the freakin' caterpillar here, there is a lil surprise popped up in my inbox :) I feel happy everytime I read this message:

"Hasil terjemahanmu baik, lanjutkan saja. Saya sudah baca kok, kata
demi kata. Hanya satu dua kata atau ungkapan yang perlu mungkin saya
sederhanakan, sesuaikan. Terus saja. Semoga jadi tonggak hidup yang
baik bagimu karena sudah menjajal menterjemahkan. Kamu bisa ayo. maju."

Om Sugeng sent me this, and I am glad that I can continue my dream! Thank you very much, Om! *lompat-lompat dikasur* and I hope I can finish my translation on time. Really, me dad should help me to get rid of those caterpillar. They disturb my concentration *sigh and scratch*

All I need is a world without caterpillar.

Itsy Bitchy Me

2010-01-04T05:14:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me dad and to me grandpa :) i hope happiness always be with them, amen. We celebrated their birthday by having a small dinner in seafood restaurant. You know, the kepiting saos padang and the grill fish were very tasty! I couldn't believe that I finished 2 crabs all at once, and I was so happy because Tomo was with me all the time. How I love him, and always love him :)

The latest issue from my day is I got the caterpillar attack all over my body. The caterpillar are getting crazier and crazier, they sabotage the whole tree and strike me down! I feel itch all over my body, I want to cry :'( Me dad should ask someone to burn the tree down so the caterpillar wont hurt me again.SHOO, SHOO, CATERPILLAR, SHOO! Thanks Allah, he save me through the medicated powder named Herocyn.

By the way, I have some several duties to do. Here is the list:

1. Find out 2 poems by St Coleridge. Type it down. Print it up. Kumpulin. (Romantic Poetry)

2. Write down the analysis of Ozymandias. Kumpulin. (Romantic Poetry)

3. Choose an ad. Analyze it in detail. Kumpulin. (Ad Discourse)

4. Choose a short story. Analyze it in detail. Kumpulin. (Stylistic)

5. Finish my chapter 1. Write the bibliography.

6. Try to make an abstract. See ms Heny.

Well, seems like a long road to heaven, isn't it? I hope the itchy bitchy itch will stop disturbing my skin so I can do my duties well. It is very thrilling you know, when you have a lot of duties but the time wont deal with it :) see you anytime soon, peeps!

My Princess Name is

2010-01-03T07:03:00.000-08:00

Princess Beatrix Penelope,

the Pearl of Halitosis

sounds crap?
I am obsessed for being a princess :)

Fin de Siecle writing

2009-12-30T17:59:00.000-08:00

My friends asked me where will I be for the new year, and I said I: go no where. They asked me back why, and I replied: nothing, I don't like celebration (except the one for my birthday, I'd like to have one, because I never celebrate my birthday either)

The year does fly, we cant avoid the fact that the time does fly, but I still cant accept the idea of celebrating new year. The time flies, and new year is just a small part of it. It is only the change of the signifier, nothing more. Life keeps on running after the so-called celebration, then what next? they may talk about the resolutions, are there any better resolutions out there?If we wanted to change, why should it be in every twelve month (and after the big celebration). I know my writing here is very arguable, and I'm looking forward to argue hehe :)

It is better to celebrate birthday than new year. I have a reason; because birthday (to me) is not mere the change of the signifier. It will determine who we are and what we suppose to do. It is better to celebrate birthday, I told you. and if you wanted to make changes, it is better to do it on your birthday :)

Talking about birthday, our former president will never have his birthday again. Gus Dur, the fourth president of Indonesia, passed away yesterday. I am sad, but I should lift my glass and cheers for him. Cheers for Gus Dur-not for his dead-cheers for his achievement, cheers for his attempt to make Indonesia more colorful just like today, Cheers :)

Good bye, Gus Dur. Rest in Peace, cheers :)

Better Version

2009-12-29T05:46:00.000-08:00

Uber-cool :)

A Happy Couple in a Velvet Couch

2009-12-26T18:40:00.000-08:00

you are so shinny
and your arms are so sunny
i like the way you walk
and the way you tell your joke
i want to have such never ending talk
while sleep with you in the hammock!
and I think one soul is enough for two,
just like me and you

How I love you, babylord :)

There, there,
I had a great time with Tomo yesterday. The rain weep, yes it was. It wet my shoe, and Tomo's new converse gahaha he loved to show his new shoe off a lot, and I was like "yeyeah sir, u are kewl" and then we laughed altogether. The rain didn't wet my heart, I had a very great time. It started in my campus, then to the best Sate Padang in town: Ajo Ramon (it's better if they put suffix -es, I think), MG Music in Blok M and the very comfy home-like Ohlala Menteng. Rain wasn't a big deal for us and I was so happy walked beside him all the time. Our meeting was less than 5hours but It felt like the happiest hours in my life. Sebentar, tapi nyaman. And the best thing was we sabotaged our fave corner in Ohlala Menteng. The comfy corner, hot pear tart and almond croissant, a glass of fresh milk, the weeping rain outside the window and us; a happy couple in a velvet couch :)
our date in the middle of Pasar Santa was incredible, too.
The weeping rain forced us to find a shelter to hide. We had nowhere to go but Pasar Santa. We sat on the main stairs, chit chat over everything for almost 1 1/2 hours before left to MG Music. I'd like to call it the best market-stair date ever! That was the best because I did it with my lovely Tomo, and no one can do better than him, smooch ah si Tomo, hhehehe.Thank you dear for the lovely time!

Me-to-be

2009-12-26T18:26:00.000-08:00

pic courtesy of justjared.buzznet.com
Lourdes Leon's style is striking my eyes! Look how cute she is, pretty in black :)
the leather denim is amazing and she wears that-uber-cool-denim legging!
Huwee how I want to have her look! this is very me to be gahahaha

One Day in Melaka

2009-12-23T20:16:00.000-08:00

I found this picture on me dad's desktop, and those happy thoughts about Melaka came in my mind. From left to right: Kakek, Mum, Kak Watik, Me, and Adam. How I want to go back to Melaka. Walking down the shiny streets, posing with the pinkish wall, ride the colorful becak, and do many things there. Melaka is fun, and very classic. I could feel the breath of Admiral Ceng Ho in every corner, and the atmosphere of old china-portuguese society is very thick there. I would like to have one of those old kebaya pecinan exhibited on the museum, they were very classic. I wish I could go there with Tomo someday :) It is very nice to imagine about my short visit to Melaka while my mind is tired. I have some translation to do, and my finish-to-be 1.1,is waiting. So little time so much to do, Arkarna said. And I think I will do my asses after I post this to my page. By the way I just bought Happy-Go-Lucky and My Sister's Keeper, I am starving to watch those movies! what do you think I will do next? movie or asses? :P

the weeping rain

2009-12-21T21:16:00.000-08:00

the rain is weeping outside my door, and I decide to skip class today :P a lil bit worry about my absent, but what can I do? the weeping rain wet the earth, and it can wet my shoe, too. I stay at home and do some assignment. Suddenly Yangtek and Yangom dropped by and we chit chat over everything. My lil house feels much warmer now and I feel content. They plan to celebrate Yangkung and Babe's birthday altogether on January. We will have small bakar-bakaran party, Yangkung and Babe love to eat grill fish and kangkung plecing. Do you guys love kangkung plecing? it is from Lombok, and very delicious :)

The weeping rain makes my tummy weeps. I want to have these foods inside my mouth:

Apple Pie
Astor
Salmon sushi
Carbonara Spaghetti
Udang goreng

it can make my tummy more mbul hehe as mbul as tomo's tummy :P I miss tomo very much by the way, it's been a long time since our last meeting. Cant wait for the next saturday, we're going to stroll along Menteng and have never ending talk! hope the rain wont weep at that time, i hope.

Rain, please dont weep on Saturday,

or else you will ruin my day!

Thanks God I am Confuse

2009-12-20T05:57:00.000-08:00

I spent my Sunday morning up in Busway. Intan, Santhy, Kak Ica , Anita and I, went to Ms Free's castle in Cempaka Putih. Jauh banget, namun we had some books from her private library, and those books will light our way in doing our thesis :)
I am doing my research about The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, at first I think it would be easy to review my fave book but confusing strikes me over and over again until now hehe
My lecturer said my thesis will be a little bit philosophical and she said it is okay to continue. I dont know how to write my thesis, seems like each word need to be synchronize with the whole pages and I am confuse. Thanks God I am confuse. It means my brain is working.LOL.
and I am working on my thesis now while Oren Lavie sings in my ear. Oren Lavie is very cool, very much cool! He was the one who sang for Narnia's soundtrack.

and I listen to his song over and over again today, his songs made my day :)
dan yang paling kerennya lagi adalah dia juga seorang sutradara teater! sutradara teater yang jadi penyanyi? very cool and rare. I am starting to love Oren, and also Lily Allen haha. Terlambat banget ya baru suka Lily Allen sekarang? well, it is better be late than nothing :P
and it is better for me to go now because my assignment is calling, he misses me!
Bye now
*with Oren in my ear, haha.

Mood Update

2009-12-17T02:17:00.001-08:00

Reading: the Unbearable Lightness of Being
Listening: Owl City
Currently: Thinking
Watching: The Ugly Truth
Noshing: snack gratisan dari seminar
Lusting: ankle boot, brogue
Feeling: so-so
Wanting: MY BOYFIE

This is DEAR VIENNA by OWL CITY. They are COOL :))

I regarded the world as such a sad sight
Until I viewed it in black and white
Then I reviewed every frame and basic shape
And sealed the exits with caution tape
Don’t refocus your eyes in the darkness
And don’t remember this place unless
I describe all the things that you cannot see
And we’ll unravel the mystery

Farewell, all my friends in textbooks, I’m going home
Cuz my blood cells cannot depend on the weather in photographs
There’s a light show out my window somewhere way up there
Dear Vienna, are you singing?
Dear Vienna, are you swinging?
Dear Vienna, we were happy like the shades of May when we got carried away

I was so far out of place
Watching those stars in outer space

nothing happen

2009-12-17T01:42:00.000-08:00

it ensures me that nothing happen lately.
it is flat.
super flat.
deadly bored, i can say.
you know,
ive done my trial for two weeks,
and the result isnt surprising at all.
AT ALL.
I know that nothing will happen.
and I want something to happen.

and I dont know. Just get me away from here I'm dying (BelleandSebastian)

Click. Click.

2009-12-07T04:03:00.000-08:00

Reading: the Picture of Dorian Gray
Listening: the ticking clocks
Currently: males-malesan
Watching: yoga body and mind
Noshing: cookie
Lusting: ankle boot
Feeling: so-so
Wanting: more holiday, health

Lets Get Out of This Country

2009-12-06T19:40:00.000-08:00

Amazing. Just heard from my Bude that she just got back from SF. Imagine! SF city disco wow wow! she had a week in LA and SF and it was amazing she said. Can you imagine, guys? SF the city of wind, she had stepped her feet there and I am amazed :)

She told me this and that, the details, and I am amazed. I really need to go abroad, I think. Cant stand any longer stay in this city (woooo sombong!!) tapi mengingat the details yang Bude ceritain, disana mataharinya pelit, ga ada debu, ga mandi 3 hari ga bau, windy etcetera seems like the real utopia for me! How I hate sun and dust which are Jakarta's best friends. Haha! take me abroad dong dong, anyone!

Sure. I am speaking in the name of seriousness. Seriously, I need to go abroad.

My Utopias are:

1. Vienna

2. UK

3. Italy

4. Somewhere in Fiji island

5. Anywhere but Indonesia and war countries

the Hadza

2009-12-01T20:38:00.000-08:00

Yeay, just finished reading the December edition of NGM :) and I do love the article of Hadza tribe in Tanzania. Martin Schoeller put some of his beautiful close-up shots on the page and he told us such amazing story about his living with the Hadza. I like the baboon hunting part. The Hadza eats baboon, and a man must kill at least 5 baboons before he can get married. Interesting, isn't it? and the Hadza has such beautiful names for the people; Nija, Onwas, Mahiya, Ngaola, Mille, Giga etcetera. I'd love to have such name for my children hehe Nija or Mahiya, sounds edgy and rare, very pretty :))

and I can say, the most interesting part from the Hadza tribe is they dont feel sad at all. Schoeller wrote that when someone's dead, the Hadza just put their corpse on the hole, or let it decayed and eat by the beast. The Hadza show no grievances, and I am amazed. Is it true that sadness and grievances came from the convention? If there is no such convention, there will be no sadness. Can we avoid sadness like the Hadza? Is it important to feel sad? Tell me your opinion, guys :)

By the way, I am going to cut my hair by now! It is getting longer and I feel gerah banget hehe semoga dapet kapster yang baik hari ini yeah. Bye bye now!

HEY!

2009-11-30T18:38:00.001-08:00

Hey, you'd better check them out!!

www.myspace.com/florenceandthemachine

I loveeeee them! :D

My Bookfie :D

2009-11-30T17:25:00.000-08:00

Well, I had this book from my grandpa months ago. It was by Milan Kundera in the title of The Unbearable Lightness of Being. Such a striking title, isn't it? I haven't read Kundera before and I was very pleased when he handed the book over me. I haven't finished reading it yet, but it has such a unusual story. Adriel told me that he saw the movie once, and it's like full of porn scene in it, hahaha no wonder, the story itself is about the erotic friendship. Pretty interesting, and I can't wait to finish it up.

My dream books lately are:

1. Between the Assasination by Aravind Adiga (I looooveeee Adiga's 1st book; The White Tiger, and I hope to read his works more!!)

2. The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger (I have to read the book 1st before see it on screen, oh please, just bring me the book hehe)

I cant wait to have them all on my shelf, I think I am going to ask my dad :P

Actually I have plenty books to read, they are related with my thesis. Pretty dizzy anyway! I just dont want to grunt any longer, and quoting Tom Hanks: I have an incredibly blessed life. Yes yes yeaass, I have an incredibly blessed life, too :D

Even though I am not Tom Hanks. Gahaha.

REMEMBER

2009-11-29T17:30:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine said about Habit nulis. It realized me somewhere in my thought, Why should I feel lazy or stuck to write? No way, it is a habit, and a habit surely doesnt need laziness. Yes I should put it on my mind, stick it and dont let it go. This is my habit, and I need to do my habit. There's no laziness no more. I hope.

SHOT OF THOUGHTS

2009-11-28T19:53:00.000-08:00

Akhir-akhir ini hujan, senang :)) and I am in the mood for floral. Mendung, dress atau tops motif bunga, long shawl and Elizabeth Arden's Mediteranean pumps my mood :))

I was sitting for hours in EX yesterday. Accompanied with needles,felt,glue,Fira and Tomo, I sew them all in order to create such cute monsters. It was fun you know, to have your private sewing time in public area even though you couldn't sell any of your handcrafted monster to people. Yes, I handcrafted monster dolls and some pretty bangle. I do hope people will like it :))

And I was sour sally-ing with Tomo sambil chit chat ngalor ngidul. I love Tomo very much and I love our time together. He told me to be more patient toward the selling of my monster dolls :))

it's better to handcrafted monsters than to stand all day long and do nothing but gazing at people. I am talking about EX's security now; he stands all day long near the escalator and do nothing. Haha he do something actually, but he seems like do nothing at all.

I was munching my Kaya toast when I noticed the man. He was a gentleman from sole to crown, clean favored and imperially slim (Richard Cory)-yes I recalled that phrase on my mind when I saw the man. He's so Richard Cory alike, in my sight. When I munched my toast, he just stood there and gazed at people. When I sipped my tea, he stood there, still gazed at people. When I read my book, he's still there, gazed people. I wonder what's on his mind when he stood there all day long. Even when I finished my sewing time, he was still there. A very royal man, the real gentleman. He has such a big commitment to his job, and I wish I had such commitment.

I want to buy blush on tapi kemarin out of stock huh, Lomo, GAP black skinny, Crocs malindi, and ETCETERA. Argh banyak maunya, tapi have no money yet..semoga bulan depan kebeli semuanya, amin! SEMUANYA at the same time haha will be a very good treat for me.

Akhir-akhr ini males-malesan. Eh tapi nggak belajar itu hitungannya males ga sih? I did many thing but belajar. Haha mean males belajar, feel so guilty.

Sebel sama seseorang darisalah satu lembaga zakat!!! MENYEBALKAN.

THE CITY OF ANGEL

2009-10-19T18:04:00.000-07:00

MAGGIE AND SETH PLATE
'How does it feel?'
'Warm'
'Dont worry, we fit together.
We made to fit together'

SAMANTHA NEWLY

2009-10-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

Flirty Andrea

2009-10-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

How I love Andrea Belladona :)
Jennifer Esposito acts very good!!
*How I want to have her accent, yeah!

Intan laughed when I tried to imitate her accent :
Me : He wont lie to me..I talk with him everyday and I dine with him everynight..

Gahahaha. How I wish Samantha Who diperpanjang dan ga abis2! I do looooveee that serials more than anything :)

the weather remote

2009-10-16T01:19:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since my last post, I guess :P
I'm trying to cope with the mood in writing, oh my goodness, it sure like a rollercoaster, up and down, even sometimes stuck in the rail (kayak Final Destination gitu).
*How I wish to have a mood controller.
and also a weather controller!
so I could manage the weather the way I want. Shut the sun, kill the rain, and everyday will be cloudy day.
How I love cloudy day :)
BY THE WAY
today is very HOT
and traffic jam is everywhere!!
it took 30 minutes by bus from Al-Azhar to Ratu Plaza, oh my god, I wanted to cry in 19 because the temperature was so hot, and the bus was stuck :'(
I was ngambek secretly like a baby, dan heboh kipas-kipas sampe mas-mas disebelah gue ketiduran. Keenakan kali ya kena angin kipas dari kipas gue. Alhamdulilah deh bikin orang nyaman, kan dapet pahala :D
Kata orang, dari setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya. This is the most cliche words I've ever heard but this is also what I love the most. I recall this phrase in my brain almost everytime; so whenever I got stuck or have plenty bucks, starving or full etc I always try to 'find' something hidden beneath the situation, so I wont get too stuck, or too happy, or too full, or too sad. But I'd like to be TOO RICH, though. Amen.

actually I have many things to tell, and to write!! the stuck moment is gone haha dan semoga akan hilang selamanya! MY MUSE is very KIND Lately :)
I have to do my assignment by now, so bye bye now!

I LIKE GIANTS. ESPECIALLY GIRL GIANTS

2009-09-01T09:12:00.000-07:00

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road, turn out the lights, get out and look up at the sky
And I do this to remind me that I'm really, really tiny
In the grand scheme of things and sometimes this terrifies me

But it's only really scary cause it makes me feel serene
In a way I never thought I'd be because I've never been
So grounded, and so humbled, and so one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

Rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky
Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye

I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye

Thank you Kimya Dawson!

My 1st Philosophy Class

2009-08-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

Hehe. Look at me now. Another philosopher wannabe in town :P
Makbul pasti ngakak kalo baca tulisan yang aku bold ini haha..
Akhirnya jd juga ikut kelas di STF, and it was Fun (well, semoga aja masih FUN sampai akhir!)
Tadinya udah males berangkat karena I had a super bad hair day, dan agak-agak membuat malas untuk kemana-mana.
Namun, kehendak mengalahkan kemalasan, then I went to Salemba by Buswe, ketemu Fira di ex Cafe Corner, then naik angkot sampe ketemu Kali dan simpang lima, turun, masuk ke gang, tadaaa..finally sampe STF jam setengah 7. Telat dan kelasnya penuh banget, jd kebagian duduk dibelakang.
and I was sitting behind a girl in red tank top yang ternyata adalah Ayu Utami. Hihi xD
Semenit sebelum aku realise itu mbak Ayu, aku sama Fira sempet ngomongin soal Bilangan Fu dan hal-hal yg dibicarakan di buku itu. Whoo-a. Penulisnya lagi ikut kuliah juga haha. Pas banget materinya tentang Baruch Spinoza dan Allah sebagai substansi yang tunggal (Haha If only I knew maksudnya apa..)
I wrote the extract on my note book, and I hope I could understand the whole concept of Baruch after I re-read it. I am so into philosophy..biarpun otakku tidak secemerlang Zaki ataupun Ayu Utami. Namun aku suka, and willing to join the class and learn more and read more :)

My 1st philosophy class was a blast!
Bahkan tadi ketemu sama orang yang juga dateng ke ultahnya SET. Namanya Mbak Emi, ternyata dia temennya Mbak Rina while Fira anak buahnya Mbak Rina dan aku adalah anak buahnya Fira. Hhaha silly :P
Mbak Emi ngenalin aku karena dia inget tas coklat yang kupakai. Uwoow, what a blast!
Yaah begitulah, and I cant even wait for my next philosophy class on 7th Sept 09 which is next Monday!
HOW I LOVE MONDAY NOW :D

Billi not Jean

2009-08-30T23:53:00.000-07:00

Udah mulai bosen dirumah!
tapi bagus deh bosennya ketika sudah menjelang masuk kuliah.
Pia soalnya kemarin ngomong gini: Argg lo baru bosen (sarcastic) gue udah bosen dari kapan tauk!
haha at least sekarang aku ngerasain bosen yang sama kayak Pia, and it is deadly bored!!
Oia jadi inget kalo I draw a monster few weeks ago. It such an ugly monster and I named him Billi. Why Billi? I dunno. It came up to my mind after I finished creating him.

This is Billi. Bilii say Hi to ur auntie, dear..

See how Billi can eat you up with his big MOUTHEAD, and look he has cute eyelashes and cool rollerblade. Billi must be the coolest kid on the block right now!
Anyway, I'm going to Salemba this evening. Zacky showed me a brochur from Driyarkara School of Philosophy and I am sooo excited to join :)
I am so into it, and I think it can help me to write my thesis. Hhe hehe. I'm going there with Fira and I will try the free trial first. Hoh, ga sabar mau cepet-cepet jam 6!

I do miss my boyfie this day!
Kangen terus setiap hari, hihi. Seven months full of LOVE. Haihahahaaa :)

A Short Scenario

2009-08-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

KENYA

(Gasp, smile)

Mau jalan sampe keujung dunia pun,
aku hayoo aja kalo sama kamu!

KAMU
?

Will you answer it for me?
Karena aku selalu senang jalan kaki sama kamu!
Dari dulu-Febuari yang lalu sampai sekarang, dan seterusnya :D

It was FUN, really :)

2009-08-29T23:46:00.000-07:00

I am talking about the 22nd SET anniversary @ TIM last Thursday. Whoo-a. It was a blast you know. Actually I didnt really put myself into the show because I had to prepare my self to ANNOUNCE and RE-ANNOUNCE some simple informations for the guesses, and I had to repeat these kind of sentence over and over again :

"Diberitahukan kepada para tamu undangan, Adzan maghrib telah berkumandang. Silahkan menikmati hidangan yang telah disediakan. Selamat berbuka puasa"

atau
"Bagi yang ingin solat magrib, musholla tersedia dibelakang saya"

and the people was confused I guess, because what stood behind me was a WALL not even a room to pray!
and I had to repeat the information: musholla ada dibelakang saya..dipersilahkan masuk ke aula teater kecil karena acara akan segera dimulai etc, which I was sure nobody listened because everybody was busy, so busy that day. I was busy too, busy meeting with some old fellas; Zacky, Niku, Nindy, Fahim, Reka, Agung, Andi, Hanny, Irfan haha.

this is me and Reka

After all I did my job well :D
and I wish that they will put picture of me in some newspaper (haha well I stood behind mas Garin that day, so if you see mas Garin's pic standing in front of the stage, I will be the one who stand behind him :P) and I do really wish that I can dance on a stage like Nadine (yes one of the Chandrawinatas) did with mas Eko Supriyanto (He is such a great dancer!! I saw him dance and I was "Ooow..". You can see his performance in Generasi Biru Movie).
How I want to be a stage perfomer..

and after the blast ended, Mbak Lia told me that we're going to had supper before we went home. Then we went to Black Canyon Coffee in Cikini. I ate Fussili dip in Tom Yum soup and drank Frosted Lime. It was great, but I couldnt finished the Fussili off because it was too much :P

I can wait for others BLAST!!

a word

2009-08-26T08:39:00.000-07:00

kangen!